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  Abigail's Introduction continued . . .

On the other hand I need to tell this story in its most complete form. I need to be open with you as much as I dare because ultimately weíll need you to understand -- what it feels like for a child to be dying despite looking healthy and fine. I need to tell you what it feels like to be grieving for a child even when he is running, playing hide and seek, or smiling sneakily as he steals food off his sisterís plate unnoticed -- and to tell you what it feels like to watch your child to rage, suffer and decline.

Itís not pretty. Itís dark, filled with absolute terror. But beyond the dark side of this experience, if I look closely, I find another side, a side filled with love, kindness, hope and humanity. For the other side is you, and the awareness that you have brought me of the truth of John Donne's words. And this is where I will begin this story.

No man is an island entire of itself; every man
is a piece of the continent, a part of the main;
if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe
is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as
well as a manor of thy friends or of thine
own were; any man's death diminishes me,
because I am involved in mankind.
And therefore never send to know for whom
the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.

Thank you my family, my friends -- old and new, acquaintances and strangers. Thank you a million times and more. We need you to be part of this story with us. Thank you for reading this, for reaching out. John and I have been deeply aware of all your acts of kindness -- no matter how small, the meals, the sale, the art show, your emails, the letters and packages in the mail.

I have been so utterly exhausted for so many months (and still am), that I have been remiss at sending thank-you cards and emails. But I want you to know how deeply John and I appreciate your kindness. When the world is looking so dark, so very evil and unfair, it gives me hope to know that the world also has so much goodness too.

So thank you for reaching out towards us and being that goodness. You all play a part in this story too, and we need you to be on this journey with us.

This is a tragic story, often horrifying. But it is also a love story -- a story of the most beautiful, pure and profound love imaginable.

Abigail Waller

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